09 June 2011
It's been a rough year. Death has been very active and especially cruel to my family lately. My brother died in January after being sick from the drugs for a long time. It's just about destroyed my family as I'm sure anyone who has lost a loved one can imagine. In one way it was a relief because he'd been in bad shape for a while and I'd felt it coming but mostly it's just brought tremendous, crushing pain. I'll never get over losing my best friend, even though he hadn't been any kind of a friend for years. Then shortly after he died one of my cats died suddenly and without warning and that was another blow. Then, a little over a month ago, my most precious beloved dog, Donkey, got bad sick and I had to put him down. It was like losing my brother all over again in some ways. I loved my Donkey more than many people in my own family. He was the furry love of my life and I'll never get over losing him. I'd never loved an animal before the way I loved him and I won't let myself feel that way again because the pain of losing him is sometimes more than I can bear. I wish I had more words, or at least something cheerful, to say but I don't. I just know I feel like blogging again so here I am. I think it can perhaps be good therapy. So, we'll see where it goes.