The More They Change, That Is...
You may have noticed my love for spirals and other circle-like symbols. This isn't just an aesthetic attraction. Everything in this life, indeed, everything and everyone on this planet and I suspect the entire universe in all its glory, terror and wonder, really does move in cycles. Energy swirls and wheels and occasionally careens wildly but as it moves back and forth and behind and around it can sometimes come unusually close to its place(s) of origin. We, as mere humans, start at one point, seemingly, and while we gradually move away from our perceived beginnings we always come back to people, interests, feelings, etc., that we once knew and might have once sworn off "for good". And I am no exception.
Long lost friendships reforged, old notions of motherhood that have revisited and decided to stay, signs from the spirits, old familiar longings and dreams. They feel different now. They are different now just as I am. But they are only the matured desires and phases that were planted as seeds years ago. In my youth, when I was a maiden, I didn't fully understand all of the difficulties or the joys of these things. I didn't comprehend the depth and details and the enormity and importance of all these, and many other, things, ideas and people. And while I'm sure I have more to learn I'm glad to say I've gotten past the beginner stage. I am no longer a newbie.
Things that began years ago and have begun again are seemingly synchronized with our slowly but inevitably blossoming springtime. The trees are blooming and attracting the earliest of bees in swarms. Our backyard is truly abuzz with their music. I happened upon a dining hawk and a running bobcat on the road today and was thrilled to see them out and about enjoying the deliciousness of this sunny day. Tomorrow may bring yet another winter storm but for today it is blessedly sunny and warm, bursting with life, energy, sap and all the juices of plant and animal life. And while the next day may be miserable, today I choose to embrace all that comes my way, soak in the warmth and milk it for all it's worth. I encourage you to do the same.